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The Wolf and the Fam
chapter 45- emotions
dei as possible. 11 on had set bright in the sky, mid day
sfully and how 1
I nodded yes, assuming
the butler I had seen earlier. He sighed.
don’t want to
fight with you and honestly, I am in no mood to fight with you eithe
I nodded wanting the same thing “neither do I, I just want to talk, and to hear your cen ide of the story. I should have done That yesterday” whatever he did,
cất chuld met he that had
He smiled at me “really?” I nodded yes, Relief flooded his eyes and as happy that I could do that for him.
“I did go to yenur realem, but I was in desperate need to find things looked at me for a brief second, but I didn’t let it bother me, I already knew why he was unable to tell me. Honestly, I didn’t think that I could tell him if the positions were switched. I nodded telling him with my body language that it was okay to confine
as I waited for
with your emotions a bit, but it was not in that way.” Itayed calm, my heart beating a mile per min him to complete his sentence “it doesn’t sound as bad as it seem, there is a better explanation, you just wait and listen‘ I had to repeat it to myself over and over again so that I didn’t flip out. I was almost certain I was going nuts when he took the dramatic
“I didn’t want you to suffer. I couldn’t bear it. I might not care for you that deeply but I hate to see you in pain” he explained leaving me even more confused. I did not understand what he meant.
My facial expression seemed to have told him that because he further explained, “the news had affected you so had that it triggered you into shilling, you were still hung up on your ex mate even though you were not ready to admit it, I was scared that anymore gried and you would lose yourself, so I locked up that side of your emotions, I channelled it to other emotions”
Twice
Three times. I touched my face lightly to see if I was awake or a dream perhaps. I couldn’t believe what I was bearing.
“you are saying…I took in a deep breath, unable to believe that he had really just… “you made me forget about her, ma’am Marie, my mum?” I said rather slowly to enable the information process rather calmly.
“I didn’t want it to consume you, I was just trying to help and his over explanations made me more and more angry, I didn’t even know when I snapped.
“help?” my voice came out softly, I looked to him, focusing all my attention to him. “you wanted to help?”
He looked at me with sadness, his eyes begging me to understand. “really did not want to hurt you.”
you
made me
me forgot my mother!” he was taken aback, not expecting me to
o raise my
y voice so suddenly.
“you didn’t forget her. Just the painful memories. You remember her once in a while and that was it, I swear it wasn’t forever, just until I thought you could handle the pain.”
I shook my head, nothing he said made it any better. I wanted to kill him so desperately “you had no right” I said, feeling conflicted. He was trying to help and that was the best way he saw how but on the other hand, he took away an important thing.
“don’t be like that” he said moving towards me as he stretched his hands to embrace me in it. I moved back, maintaining the space between us. I needed that space, for my own sanity.
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chapter 45–emotions
I shook my head giving myself a lot of space. “I think we need space from each other, and most of all, undo it.”
“you can’t be serious.” He looked at me like I was growing another head. “I am preparing a ball, and I would introduce you to them, there is no way”
“you either do it for me, or I am going to meet someone who would do it” he looked at me, he knew I wasn’t bloffing when I said it. it didn’t matter to me if it was dangerous. They were memories I was going to honour, painful or not, they were what made the memories special to me.
“fine, but you realise that its not just her emotions right? Its ever
trying to change my mind, trying to scare me from doing it.
ng that has hurt you recently, it would hit you at once” he was
1 crossed my arms, giving a stance that I wasn’t going to change my mind “I don’t care, do it”
He looked at me at first, not doing nothing. I was starting to get agitated but then he nodded, realising that I wasn’t going to change my mind.
His eyes flashed and then he looked away from me. I had expected the removal process to be some sort of rituall for him but that was it..
Ifew moments and then it hit me.
- e. It was like my mood was an egg held at a high building and then dropped at a very high speed.
My knees nearly buckled as I stood there. I gripped the nearest thing to me which was the curtain, breathing rather loudly to get a grip on myself. “are you okay?” his worried voice in my state felt like a balm on a wound, like ice on a burnt finger. I wanted to cling to him and make him never stop speaking, but I was still mad him and I had a chocking pride.
“I am fine” I said through clenched teeth.
I was not fin though, it was a lie. I felt anger, anger at myself. It was my fault shes died. It wasn’t for me, she would still be alive. then guilt. The fact that I left her alone, all by herself to suffer, the guilt of forgetting her, even for a brief second. It didn’t matter that Helios had temporarily wiped the emotions out of my mind. If I loved her enough it would have been stronger than any magic he would do.
Then lastly, I felt pain. It was as if my heart was being ripped out of my chest I let out a whimper finally fiving in and letting my knee buckle. I really was a shitty daughter.
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Jo Newell
finally giving* in
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