chapter 46- good byes
Sam’s p.o.v (the day of her departure)
I woke up early the next morning to get my thing going. Everything was set as early as 4am. I needed to leave early In order to get there early. I packed my things out of the house alone, no one e came to help me. I could hear my mother’s distinct footsteps, I knew she was up but not once did she come help me. I didn’t let it bother me much.
A fresh start, that’s what i promised myself I was going to do.
I came out completely from the house and just as promised by the academy, a car was waiting down stair already, ready to pick me up. i walked up to the man who showed me his badge and everything and took the bags from my hand like the bag weighed nothing.
I looked back at the house, I fought to keep the tears that threatened to fall at bay.
At the end she didn’t come get me, she didn’t even try to put her anger aside for today and at least tell me goodbye. I contemplated walking up the stair to go knock on her room door but then thought against it. it wouldn’t matter, It was not like she was going to support me either way. The truth of that hurt me regardless.
I walked up to the car, about to enter when I saw a shadow, one I had missed earlier. I tensed, ready to fight when the person who had hiding there came out. Two actually.
My brother and Eric. I was kind of shocked that my brother cared enough to make it, I kind of expected Eric’s own though.
“so, you’re really going huh?” my little brother said looking away from me slightly. We weren’t that close, mainly because he was always on video games and I was made to do all the work, it made me grow some type of resentment for him that I never bothered to form something special with him.
I nodded, standing awkwardly and waiting for him to get what he wanted to say out. To my surprise, he just hugged me. It took me a while to realise what happening for me to respond to it. “I am sorry I was such a brat” I hugged him tighter
“oh jer.” I hugged him tighter.
It touched my heart that he actually apologised. I didn’t think I needed to hear it from him but alas, it was like the water was under the bridge made me regret why I didn’t spend more time with him in our teenage years, we used to be the best of friends when we were little. We parted and he gave way for Eric.
He stood awkwardly for a minute or two before he spoke. “so, this is it huh?” I was focused a bit too much on those lips when he spoke, remembering what had happened with there a few hours ago.
I nodded, still standing there awkwardly.
“I am sorry that I pushed you away” I shook my head no. he had every right to feel how he felt, it was his mourning process.
“you don’t need to be sorry. I guess it wasn’t just the right time for us”
He nodded as if to comply with what I was saying.
Ta
sorry I am such a mess”
“I need a favour from you Eric” he snapped his eyes to mine so fast that I thought his head might snap.
“what ever you need” I felt like the biggest jerk for what I was going to say, but it had to be done.
“complete the rejection process” I didn’t miss how he froze up.
“I will not do that” he said shaking his head “I told you, what you decide to do is yours and mine is mine. I will not let you go”
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chapter 46- good byes
I gripped his upper arm, trying to get his attention. “I can’t carry the thought that somewhere, some one would be tight to me and I might not even share the same feeling
ing for th
the
person. That guilt would eat me alive and even though we get back together in the future, I would always wonder if you genuinely love me even half as much as you love her. And at least this way you can be free to love who you choose without guilt“.
“I don’t want to do it” he looked determined, I was almost sure that he was going to toss the idea away, but what he did next totally
shocked me
He looked me square in the eyes. “but if that is what would make you happy. I would do it” I felt myself breathe again which was crazy because I didn’t even know that was holding my breath.
I could see the hesitation in his eyes, he did not want to do your rejection.
it, but it was for the best. “I, Eric beta of the regional moon pack accept
It was instant, the final snap in our bond. It hurt like hell, but I would get over it. it was best this way.
I said nothing hugging him back just as tight. Finally, we let go as the He hugged me tight. “I am sorry I fucked this up for us, driver reminded us of the long drive ahead. We parted ways rather hesitantly
I entered into the car, finally letting the tears fall freely. I wiped them as much as I could I could trying not to make a mess.
“here” the driver handed me a handkerchief.
I thanked him grateful for.it.
I was finally going to get a fresh start. I was both excited and dreadful of it, but I was going to face it head on, no less. I was not going to come back home unless I made it.
That was the promise I made to myself while leaving the pack
LAST CHAPTER OF SAM’S STORY IN THIS BOOK
