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Ethan had indeed fallen asleep on the bathroom floor. Seth managed to get him to his feet long enough for him to shuffle over to his bed and the minute he crashed onto the covers his arms snaked around my waist and pulled my back to his chest. His legs wrapped around mine as he settled his chin in the cave of my shoulder. Ethan’s gentle snore started up again and I bit my lip to keep from smiling happily. I glanced up to see that Seth was still there too, standing over us, staring down with a look in his eyes that had me worried.
“Seth, come,” I whispered, patting the space in front of me.
He scrubbed a hand carelessly through his halt and offered an insincere smile. “You know, I just remembered I had this thing that I have to do.
“It can wait!”
“It can 1, actually. It’s very important and I need to be there now.”
I swallowed, feeling suddenly hollow. I don’t think I’d ever seen Seth lie before, at least, not to me or Ethan. “W–wh-” I paused, clearing the stutter from my throat as I continued, “Why are you lying to me?”
The fake carefree happiness in his eyes shifted and at that moment, I watched his beautiful green eyes harden, I knew that Seth was more than just a boy Ethan had fallen in love with. He was more than just a man I was falling in love with. He had history, a history of abuse, deceit, lies… murder. Seth had never told Ethan and me specifics, but he’d said enough for us to not want to ask about it. There are some things in this world I’m just better off not bowing. So yeah, I knew he had a bad past and that he was used to concealing his emotions, but I never thought he’d do it to me
“Not everything is about you, Cassie, Seth said coldly before turning towards the closet. He came out dressed and his arms loaded with some clothes.
Some clothes. Maybe that was an understatement. As in his arms were full of his clothes, probably all the ones he’d left at Ethan’s.
My heart thumped and I cringed at the “Wh–what are you doing?”
pain as it cracked under the pressure. Didn’t I know this would happen? Everything I touch…
with his back turned towards me, I watched his muscles relax as he exhaled. “This isn’t working”
Its not working? What do you mean?”
He turned and gestured towards us. This, It’s not working for me. You know, I thought I could do it, because Ethan does love you, Cassie. Not like friends either. I was just a phase he was going through because he couldn’t figure out why the only person who ever meant anything to him was the only girl that could get him us. It strated him, you know.”
I managed to pull myself from Ethan a tight grip. “Why are you doing this? You just–1 mean we–in the bathroom–1-
I won Puery the sexual chemistry, but that was never the problem, he said, his emotionless eyes darting towards Ethan and for a mere second, I thought I saw a slip in his mask,
mean then what is the problem? art that how all extremely hot rings start?”
Beth clucked his tongue and started half assed folding his clothes or the hangers that hold thein. “Does It matter to you?”
ters. I thought we’d all
were hang this? Were you lying to than when you told his you’d thinking about it for a while
strided–yesterday even that we would give us a try. So, you
satu, his abort clipped answer feeling
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Slowly, I stood to my feet, finally having managed to disentangle myself from Ethan, and suddenly feeling the need to be not so quiet anymore either. “You know, you said not everything is about m, but this is about me?” I asked, hating the whimper in my voice. Isn’t it?
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V for Virgin!
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Seth, with his back still turned away, said nothing.
“You know what? I get it. I’m not so stupid that I can’t take a hint,” said as I walked towards the bathroom to quickly put Ethan’s pajama shirt back on. As I left the bathroom. I scrimmaged through thun’s dresser drawer and pulled out a pair of sweat pants. It was all I had here that was clean and it wasn’t even mine. It was either the gorgeous dress they’d lent me hours ago when we’d all decided to try something different, my dirty work clothes, which were at the front door in a bag, or this, and this was the only thing suitable to walk home in.
Damn it.
I should’ve known it wouldn’t have worked.
As I left the bedroom, 1 let my gaze drift to the dress that had made me feel pretty for a few hours before turning away. The dress wasn’t mine. It was just something they’d gotten to show me that they were once again, going to indulge me in my little fantasy world. Katie’s words hit me harder than they had when Ethan had brought her up.
over me
Seth thought he was finished, well I was too, It was clear what was happening. Seth didn’t think Ethan would choose him so he was going to be the one to leave. But secretly, I knew that Ethan loved Seth too much and I loved Ethan enough to not make him choose. That didn’t mean I was bailing out gracefully though.
Reaching the front door, I bent down to put my work shoes, debating again on whether or not I should just take the time to put my work clothes on instead, but I quickly decided against it. That would take more time and I wanted to get the hell out of here as fast as possible. I was done being a burden or someone people felt the need to indulge in. I was done with them going along with something Just because they wanted to keep me happy and quiet.
Damn, she never shuts up. If you hadn’t given in to her, I think my ears would have started to bleed.”
Seth’s words a few months ago actually hurt now. Before I’d shrugged it off, they’d always say stuff like stuff like that about them and myself. It was just being playful, or at least that’s what I thought. I guess it took this moment for me to realize what it was: me, constantly getting in the way. Ethan didn have to say anything for me to know it was true for him too.
like that. I mean, I would say
Was I even really his friend or just the girl his parents forced him to hang out with when they were kids or the girl that needed help. because her poor adoptive parents were dead? Maybe Katle had been right all along. My heart dropped. I’d never, never thought of it
way, but with Seth and his ‘this isn’t working speech things had started becoming clear,
My hand was on the doorknob when I heard Seth’s voice calling from the bedroom. “What exactly is it that you think you get,
My law clenched at the condescending sound in his voice. I darted towards the coffee table and grabbed his box of cupcake multin I knew I should just leave, but I’d had time to dwell on the situation and I was pissed. I could feel my face burning hot with anger as 1 walked towards Ethan’s room and lobbed a cupcake at Seth. That it’s not my fault the two of you aren’t man enough to say no to me. That just because I haven’t illegally obtained loads of money or inherited it from my rich parents doesn’t mean that either of you in better than miet
What the fuck did you just throw
Seth started growl was load enough to finally wake Ethan up or maybe it was my
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“I was always okay to go along with it because I didn’t have anyone anyway and it seemed like you guys were playing around whi you said: Well, Cassie, I told you so, or Cassie and your stupid ideas I paused, glorifying in Seth and Ethan’s shocked expression -you didnt think I’d heard that one did you? I know you talk about me. I’ve heard you both more than a few times. Poor Cassie this and poor Cassie that, she sure knows how to give me migraines and why does she have to be so difficult? Well, here it is! not gonna be difficult for either of you anymore. I might not be as smart as either of you, but I’m not completely stupid and sinc you both can’t manage to say no to the poor pitiful girl with two sets of dead parents, then I will! The large hints you’ve been throwing my way since for like ever has finally been understood and is being taken!” I shouted, throwing my last delicious cupcal at Ethan as I stormed out towards the front door slamming it so hard it rattled.
I didn’t need them. They didn’t need me. Well fine.
“Im done being a charity case to them,” I mumbled stomping towards the elevator and taking it down to ground level.
As my work heels clipped against the concrete another scene from my past invaded my thoughts and made my heart heavier.
Sometimes I just wish.
Ethan, you’re angry about what happened today. Think before you go any further, Ethan’s mother warned as I tiptoed up to his do
to hear them speaking.
Sometimes I just wish I’d never met her that day. She ruins everything! And everybody she’s ever known except for you and me is dead because of her! I hate her. It was my birthday! Why did she have to-
I’d walked away after that and cried myself to sleep. I hadn’t meant to be sick all over him and his cake. I hadn’t meant to have the flu on his twelfth birthday, but I knew it had been more than that. It wasn’t just that day, it was an accumulation of days, of years, in fact. I’d just chosen to ignore it, but I couldn’t anymore.
Not with what 1 was attempting to do.
I was bringing another life in this world for parents who couldn’t have kids, ones like my beloved adoptive parents. This deserved to have everything they ever wanted and if me giving it to them was the only way to get it done, then so be it. I just needed to cut away the ties that had been forcing people to take care of me when they’d never wanted to, but the idea of
couple permanently cutting my friendship with Ethan and Seth off hurt.
And then my words came back to me. I’d promised nothing would change if the relationship didn’t work out and I knew that I would be there for both of them if they ever needed me, but something did have to change. I would start walking back and forth to work every day instead of just occasionally, for one thing. If they wanted to hang out they would have to endure my apartment and my food too, not just Ethan’s. We wouldn 1 spend all our free time togeltor either.
This had to happen for the sake of Ethan and Setis relationship and for the sake of my heart. I’m not sure how much more I can bundle, but I knew to lose them as friends would be the end for me to it would hurt. It would hurt like hell after now knowing what the three of us could ve been like how perfect we’d been together. had to step back. It was always guing to be me that had to. It just happened sooner than I’d wanted it 100.
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