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“I’m sorry,” he repeated. “Can we leave it at that? I made a mistake. Too many unwanted people in one night and I panicked. I human, but I do know that His breath hitched and he cleared his throat before continuing. I like who I am when I’m with Ethan, but I love who I ant when I’m with you both.”
My heart thumped at his words, but I’d had too many people leave behind, willing or not, to let simple words overshadow actions and I felt myself emotionally shutting down. It wouldn’t be forever, but right now Seth and Ethan weren’t the only ones that needed this distance. I just had to be strong enough to stick with it,
I pried his arms from around my waist and bent down to eye level. Actions speak louder than words, Seth, I can’t be in a relationship with you… with either of you, if you’re gonna tell me half–truths and then have Ethan stand behind it! I just don’t have the strength for that type of drama,” I whispered the last words and then added, a little louder, “I don’t want to damage what you two have already and it’s very clear that Seth doesn’t trust me enough for the truth. I get it. I’m not holding grudges, but let’s be honest, this relationship stopped before it even started.”
1 started to pull away but felt a wave of guilt. They had given me something priceless and I didn’t want to end, whatever it was we’d had at that time, like this.
I turned back towards them, “All the same, I don’t want to sound ungrateful for what you both did for me. I do appreciate that and I will always love you both for it! I just think, for the sake of your relationship, that we need some space.”
With that, I pulled away from Seth, ignoring their protests, and walked towards the front of the store, still hoping, as my stomach grumbled unhappily, that I could sneak a couple of bites of the free sandwich I had half a mind to demand.
Sighing, knowing I wouldn’t ask, I reached into my apron and pulled but some bills. The two dollars worth of crumpled money wasn’t even enough for a black coffee. I shoved the bills into my apron and patted my stomach, knowing that by the end of my shift I’d be ravenous. It would be the perfect ending to a horrible day.
Ethan and Seth stayed the entire day–something I hadn’t noticed until my shift was over–so when I hollered a bye to Megan and rounded the counter, their quick descent on me was unanticipated
“Have you guys been here the whole time?” I asked, eyeing their rumpled clothing and disheveled hair.
Seth actually looked unkempt. He never looks anyulsing less than perfect.
We sat at that table the whole time. These seats are hard as hell, han mumbled grumpily, rubbing his tush for good measure.
“Oh,” I said. “So, what are we doing? Grey’s Anatomy marathon?”
I would i
but I was the one that promised things would be the same if the relationship status didn’t work out. I remembered the promise and it had played over in my mind all day. I eventually concluded that I needed to prove that I would keep my promise to thenewed me. I also argued with myself that we’d been friends longer than lovers and it wasn’t their fault if my feelings lud gutten hurt. The longer I’d been away from them (a whole whopping Fight hours today), Id realized losing both of them wasn’t an uption either… Iddendship was better than nothing and that space been talking about had been those same hurt feelings talking
I hadn’t wanted to Adult today, but it happened anyway.
What? Seth finally spoke up. His voice was scratchy and his eyes tid as he rubbed a fast hand through his hair.
[ther wolfod at bim, “Only you could ep in a thuir as hard as
Seth rolled his eyes. I’m awake now and there in 1 going to be any around you. You’re hat then you’re cold… Were gonna tab like Pihi
rey’s marallinn. I feel like singing a Katy Perry song when I’m wants,” he said, seeming to add that last part with a hint of
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accusation.
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