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so not in control” she looked worried. I felt bad for causing her to feel this much guilt.
“it is fine mum, I have it sorted out” I lied to keep her from worrying.
“is it? Helios,, the people now know that you have a weakness. They saw what I saw. Is si really worth it?” she whispered the last words, as if scared that someone would hear us.
I kept quiet, I thought she would be happy for me, but from what I saw, she did not look it. “she is not even one of us, what about your off springs child” she continued, voicing her fears.. I knew she was concerned for me, but I did not seem to mind all she thought
were actually issues.
“I can assure you that those would not be an issue. My seeds would be as strong as their father, evem stronger.” I had this strong sense of pride in the childrem that had not even
been borm yet..
“don’t be ridiculous helios!” she snapped causing me to look at her with shock. The only
time my mother used that tone with me was when she was scolding me for doing something wrong. “the girl is far more trouble than she is worth. Others would see you a
weak, her off springs would be nothing but outsiders, worthless to us”
I could mot believe the things I was hearing from her. “I thought that would be the more
reason you would side with me. Being the outsider, the useless one till I was finally
needed” I looked at her not hiding the pain in my words..
“Helios, that is not what I meant and you know it” she said avoiding my gaze.
“then what do you mean mother” I hated how my voice grew colld and defensive towards her, but she was not acting like a supportive mother right now.
“I only want the best for you and you know it.. and I don’t think that being with..”
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“an outsider” I cut her off. She shook her head mo, uendly to deny the words that she had herself brought out from her mouth. “you want to know what’s funny mother? I have stayed in these walls for more than half of my life and I can still see it in their eyes that don’t belong here. That I would never be truly seem as their own. I thought being differe would be good. You told me that there was nothing wrong in it
I thought you would be supporting me to hand com, mott telling me to leave her, especially not now.” I suddenly felt drained. I wanted motthing more than to go and lay next to my
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mate in hopes that she would feel better. O
“Helios, I am just watching out for you, my son” she said, desperately trying to make me understand.
“I am tired mother, I want to retire for the night.” I said stopping her from saying any other thing that could make me more disappointed in her. “good night” I kissed her forehead out of duty and was on my way down to the stairs. I could feel her stair at my back but I didn’t care. I just wanted it to be done with.
I reached the door step of Luzia. I
