Chapter 137: Sorrow and Mourning 

Ruby’s POV 

I never realized how crushing loneliness could be until Mikael was go 

Every day, the house feels emptier, and everything has turned monochrome. There’s more cold than warmth, em tor the heater is always on. The twins‘ cries echo through the empty rooms, a constant reminder of what’s missen th Their little voices are the only sounds that pierce through the numb sidence, and sagetimes, I hate myself toy wishing would all just stop for a moment so i could breathe. 

“Mom, is it true that daddy’s never coming back?” Anna sobbed. 

Alice cut in, her tone firmer. “Isn’t it obvious? Dead people stay underground forever” 

“B–but, daddy was strong! He wasn’t supposed to die!” Anna cried out. 

“Tell him that at his grave.” 

Alice has grown into a cold and hardened little girl over time. She’s more realistic, even as a child, it breaks my heart to see her this way. She acts like that so Anna would stop complaining to me, because Alice knows her mother is still geteg “It’s okay, mom. I understand.” 

I almost broke down when those words came out of my little girl’s mouth. I’m supposed to be strong. Mikael’s Beta parte. The mother of his children. I carry his legacy. But nearly every day, I feel like a corpse within my own body. 

There’s a heaviness in my chest that never goes away, as if my heart is weighed down by stones. I keep moving because! have to, not because I want to. I feed the twins, clean, tuck them in. I take care of them as any decent mother should. But there’s no life behind my eyes as I do it. Sometimes I look in the mirror and don’t recognize the woman staring back. She’s pale, thin, and hollow–eyed. She looks older than sorrow itself. 

The worst part is, I still have one baby. And Anna isn’t like her twin. She still doesn’t understand where her father went. I don’t blame her. She’s still too young to grasp what death truly means. 

Many times I have to soothe her, comfort her, because her father is no longer here to wrap her in his warm embrace. As a werewolf, it’s incredibly hard to let go of the one you love. Mikael’s scent is fading from the house, from their blankets, from me. And every day, I still see the twins looking for him after school, calling for him in their small, broken voices. 

“Dad?” 

It shattered me. 

I held them tightly and lied. I told them he was with the Moon Goddess, that he was watching over them from the stars. Alice didn’t believe it as easily as Anna did, even though tears streamed down her cheeks. 

Today was worse than usual. 

I managed to hold it together until they fell asleep, the two of them curled up together in the middle of the bed. Their small bodies huddled so closely, as if staying near each other could somehow keep the world from falling apart. I waited until their breathing grew steady, then I slipped out. 

The room across the hallway used to be ours. Mikael’s scent still lingers faintly on his pillow, on an old shirt I refuse to wash. It’s a cruel kind of comfort, clinging to the last traces of him, knowing it will fade no matter what I do. 

I closed the door behind me, slid down to the floor, and finally let it all break open. 

“How could you leave me like this, Mikael?” 

A sob tore from my throat before I could stop it. I covered my mouth with both hands, a useless effort, as the dam of tears burst through anyway. 

“I didn’t even get to hear your last goodbye!” 

“This is cruel!” 

I don’t know how long I stayed like that, curled up on the floor like a wounded animal. And I didn’t even hear the de pen. 

“Rosalyn?” 

I froze the moment I recognized the voice. Shame flushed through me at being found in such a state. 

Karina crossed the room in seconds, kneeling beside me. She immediately wrapped her arms around me, and that alone was enough to make me fall apart again. 

Successfully unlocked! 

“I’m sorry,” I managed to choke out, my face bu.ed agairent her shoulder 

houldn’t be this weak. I’m letting Mikael down 

“Stop that.” 

I could hear the sorrow in her gentle reprimand. “You don’t have to be strong right now. You’re allowed to fall apart.”. 

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Chapter 13) Songs and org 

I didn’t believe her. I didn’t think I could fall apart when my children stal needed me, when the park still looked to me as the 

Beta’s mate 

Still, I let myself cling to her, because pretending to be strong wasn’t working and for once, it felt good not to be alone in 

all of this 

She stroked my har like a mother would, even though she wasn’t any older than me. 

“I miss him so much, I whispered 

“I know, she said softly. “We all do. But I could see how you loved him in a way noe else did. That’s not something you can just set aside, Rosalyn Don’t even try” 

I closed my eyes, fresh tears burning as they fell, 1 don’t know who I arn without him. I don’t know how to do this without 

him.” 

Karina pulled back just enough to look into my eyes. “You don’t have to have all the answers right now. You just need to keep going. One thing I know for sure Mikael would want you to keep living and to find joy again, with your children.” My cries were muffled in her embrace. It hurt so deeply to hear his name spoken like that. It’s seems something from the past, as if he were just a story we’d one day tell the children. 

“I keep thinking I’ll hear his voice, I admitted in defeat. “I swear, sometimes I hear him calling my name. Or feel his hand on my back. It’s stupid, isn’t it?” 

“Not at all, Karina said gently. “That’s the very definition of true love and the bond you shared. It doesn’t just disappear because his heart stopped beating.” 

My body trembled violently. I kept pouring out everything that had been building inside me. I knew Karina was carrying her own grief, too. She was mourning just like I was. Mikael had been her brother–in–law, the younger brother of her husband, her Alpha, Jayden was just as broken as I was. 

Slowly, I began to find the strength to straighten my spine again. Karina didn’t let go, she just kept holding me, grounding me in a world that still felt so wrong without Mikael in it. 

“I can stay the night or how about you and the twins come stay at the manor?” she offered once I was able to sit up. 

I shook my head, wiping at my face. “No, thank you. I think the twins would rather stay here, Karina.” 

She nodded, squeezing my hand. “Alright. But please, come to me if anything happens. Anytime, okay?” 

“I’ll try,” I said with a weak smile. 

After Karina left, I lingered in that room, breathing in the faint traces of Mikael’s presence, letting it fill every part of me. “Thank you for the happiness you gave me, Mikael.* 

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